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The Blind Eternities forum
Posted on Feb. 27, 2015, 12:54 p.m. by PreZchoICE1
fresh start. GO
I had one of my friends beat me with her calculus textbook one time when I accidentally spoiled a major plotline of GoT. I've read the books, and I thought that the show was already past that point haha.
April 12, 2015 11:13 p.m.
Someone pulled a foil lili of the veil on friday at my lgs. Some people have all the luck.
April 12, 2015 11:15 p.m.
Femme, one of my friends is dating a trans girl, and she happens to know a lot about various options for the necessary procedure. I believe she mentioned that Thailand is actually very well known for it, but I could potentially be mistaken. Would you want me to ask her about it?
April 12, 2015 11:17 p.m.
Femme_Fatale says... #6
Please do xzzane. I'll be forever in your debt if you can find me a method to become a hermaphrodite.
April 12, 2015 11:25 p.m.
Haha I'll ask her next time I run into her. I have class with her for sure Thursday, but I usually cross paths with her on the way to some of my classes. But I'll let you know by Thursday what she says. Or I could just facebook message her...derp. Anyways, I'll let you know what she says when she gets back to me.
April 12, 2015 11:29 p.m.
Femme_Fatale says... #8
-KinkyPie-, perhaps you can provide me with some information too?
April 12, 2015 11:37 p.m.
Your trans? Am I the only one who thinks that that's cool, but not in a weird or gross way? Sorry if this is personal, but how does that work?
Also VampireArmy, am I a friend/acquaintance?
April 12, 2015 11:48 p.m.
Femme_Fatale says... #12
"How does that work?" You might want to elaborate on that sentence a little Scorprix.
April 12, 2015 11:50 p.m.
Wanted to wear womens' clothing for quite some time but the body does not allow it whatsoever. More so physicality than hair everywhere, but in any event life is unfortunately tough sometimes.
April 12, 2015 11:52 p.m.
Typing this on my phone. Prepare for fucking autocorrect.
Well vampire, you made a list of specific friends, and I was wondering if I was an acquaintance. I left for like 6 hours and only came back now, so I'm a bit late on that one.
Femme: I was just wondering how being transgender is like. Is it indifferent?
April 12, 2015 11:56 p.m.
VampireArmy says... #16
OH. Well honestly I have not had extended contact with you so I would say we are Vague acquaintances. I've been on this site 2 years and I only slightly remember a group of people from the first interactions I had.
It'd be hard to list all of my acquaintences here but for the record I've only had actual private conversations with :
Femme, Bell, Slova, Bigguy, and Tibs :)
April 13, 2015 12:02 a.m.
What about the all powerful Epoch? And I can't think of a single 'Tibs'...
April 13, 2015 12:39 a.m.
VampireArmy says... #20
We've spoken here and there. I only mention him really because he's literally everywhere on this site being an admin and all
tibs is (T)his(I)s(B)ullshit
April 13, 2015 12:41 a.m.
Femme_Fatale says... #21
You are forgetting vampirelazarus, VampireArmy.
Being trans is basically wishing you were born the other gender and/or sex. I'll try not to generalize it with my experiences, as there are numerous different forms of trans people. I've mentioned this before, not too sure if it was here though, but basically I want to rework the entire transgender/transsexual thing to encompass all the different forms.
Trans is basically wanting to be a sex they are not physically or portray oneself as a gender they are not in society. Currently, transgender encompasses all over-arching terms of misplaced sex/gender identity, but transsexual appears to be solely on those who go through the entire procedure, surgery and all. How then, do you define people who aren't going through surgery to those who only know the stereotypes about trans individuals? We have no term for those who are only going through hormonal therapy. We have no term for those who are taking no medical route and just want to be portrayed as the opposite gender in society. And then no term further for those who are pursuing routes that don't follow any of these.
Because of this, what I want is to have all over-arching gender and sex transitioning people just be referred to as trans, and then putting labels (because labels are important) on the types of trans individuals to raise awareness of all of them with a very specific reference to being a spectrum that you could be all of them if you desire.
I don't know a single trans who wants to be trans. The transition is a grueling and mentally grinding challenge. You are faced with discrimination galore, difficulties trying to transition everywhere you go and the realization that you'll never be quite 100% who you wish you were born as. In that, I find that we all just wish we were born the proper sex and gender, so that we don't have to go through all this.
I don't particularly like how we all say "I am trans", because to me, trans is just a state. It's a condition you are in until you reach the other destination. I also don't like how trans was removed from the DSM-V. While yes, there are trans who feel it is a result of their environment and social and not from any mental condition, I also find that the trans who fit more transsexual category do feel that it is a mental condition. It isn't something normal and it isn't something that is wished upon the individual. Because let's be honest, having the desire to chop off one's boobs or chop off one's penis is certainly not normal, and, quite disturbing actually. I would have died out of blood less had I chopped off my penis the one time I finished Self by Yann Martel and became emotionally distraught because of the ending.
But perhaps that decision was made because transsexualism seemed to be (I don't know for sure) the only mental condition that wasn't treated. Rather it was the body that was treated. Maybe it would be easier on those with transsexualism if we were able to treat the mental condition as a mental condition, removing any desire they had to be another sex. All that discrimination gone, all that money saved up, so much hardships avoided and the life threatening surgery avoided.
Describing what trans feels like to someone who isn't trans isn't easy, because they don't have a frame of reference. In general, females are more accepting of trans folk than males though. Basically, the descriptor I use to try and give others a frame of reference is imagine your life if your born with a malfunction, or malformed. Like, having a third arm sprout out of the top of your head or having dicks poke out of your ass cheeks. Then imagine what your life would be like if you were forced to live with that for a large portion of your life. That's basically what trans is, but with gender and/or sex.
April 13, 2015 1:11 a.m.
CanadianShinobi says... #22
The only frame of reference I possibly have is my depression.
You're right, Femme_Fatale I can't understand the details, or perhaps the over arching concepts or what not. But I can sypampathize with the feeling of having some sort of malfunction. In this case it's my brain.
One of the greatest things that I struggle through is feeling hollow. Especially lately. From my viewpoint it appears as if everyone is happy, everyone has their life together and everyone is surrounded in someway, by people who accept them and care for them. And have none of those things. I feel worthless, stupid and incapable of being loved or cared about. And, I'm to blame, because there's a fundamental flaw within myself that I can't find. But, if I find that flaw I'll be able to fix everything.
This is what my depression has been doing to me over the past few months. Before it was manageable, but now I can't manage it at all. I don't trust medication. I've tried various medications in the past and none of them have proven effective. Antidepressants are often a roulette wheel. Therapy has had mixed results, most of them negative because I feel that professionals do not respect individuals as individuals. And, I suppose that in someways that could be my fundamental flaw. But, I've yet to meet a professional who has earned my trust, and for me trust is important. My most recent therapist actually got several details of what I told them drastically wrong. Needless to say, I didn't go back to them.
I envy those who have some inkling of hope that whatever they're enduring will pass. Because, frankly I haven't any hope left.
April 13, 2015 1:57 a.m.
CanadianShinobi says... #24
To expand slightly. The order in my life has all but vanished. As someone who values routine and structure this has made things worse, especially simce I am faced with a situation I cannot rectify. As such, this may explain my recent behaviour on the site. I lack order in my life so I attempt to create a semblance of order and structure else where for my own peace of mind.
April 13, 2015 2:52 a.m.
I have the same problem as Canada man here, although with some slight differences (but you get the point, I'm sure). Have had it since freshman year of high school and I've been to therapists. There was one when the whole thing started that I really liked but that was in the whole rebellious stage so it didn't last long and I've never been on meds. I also have a super short temper. (Today I was gonna go out with my friends and it was around 50 degrees out so I decided to put on jeans and a t-shirt with a flannel on top. A friend told me to put something warmer on because I'd be cold and after insisting that I wouldn't be I just went back to my computer and slammed the door to the room shut. He later said some heads poked out from the rest of the floor.) Life's shitty, but we've all got some shit to hang on to. You've got your history, I've got math, and we both have MtG. I'm just trying to take shit one step at a time.
April 13, 2015 3:06 a.m.
And just in case, my Skype name is chickenbutt38 (I know, it's old) and if you get multiple results I have a picture of a goat and the name is boom. Just in case.
April 13, 2015 3:10 a.m.
I have a ton of trans friends femme. I can put you in contact if you would like. You'll probably meet heavy resistance in the US for wanting to transition but don't let it stop you.
April 13, 2015 3:19 a.m.
It's Thailand by the way, not Taiwan, and are you on hormones?
April 13, 2015 3:23 a.m.
If anyone wants to add me on league, names Kyuuri117, send me a friend request and let me know it's you on my wall. I only really play aram but getting the most out of urf while it's here, so hit me up.
April 13, 2015 4:26 a.m.
It's six fifty two and I don't want to get out of bed. Uuhg.
I'm very sorry if I offended you there a bit. As you probably know I would never try to irritate or offend someone unless they're annoying, douchebags, or offending someone else. However, thank you for the detailed descriptions, as It was vey kind of you to write them for us. Now I feel guilty though, since people are writing long responses about their life difficulties. I wouldn't really say I have as many problems as some others (and trust me, I'm not trying to come off as an asshole) here, but I would assume that that's because of my age. The only massive shits that go down is that it's really hard for me to keep focused on something for more than like 5 minutes. I was never diagnosed with anything, so I can't take medication, but imagine ADD, and give that hoe a few steroids. Seriously, it was LITTERALLY a challenge to read the whole comment, and not out of bordum, it's just hard for me.
April 13, 2015 7:14 a.m.
Femme_Fatale says... #33
I'm in Canada ChiefBell, Vancouver. One of the most diverse, least religious and most expensive in terms of housing in North America. So I'll probably have more luck in terms of this style of transition. I've already got approval to go straight to the more effective forms of HRT, however I haven't started them yet as I wanted to wait post first year univerisity and post acquiring a job.
Which is a good thing, considering HRT shrinks the cock to such levels that it can't hold an erection. Yeah, it becomes something lesser than a clit. I'm thinking that the only process I can go through is to go through HRT and go through the surgery, removing it, but then utilizing stem cells to biologically grow a new cock, and surgically add that on.
April 13, 2015 7:58 a.m.
Wait, I'm confused with which sexual organs you want now. You're making it sound like you want both?
April 13, 2015 8 a.m.
Femme_Fatale says... #35
Yes. In short, I want to become a hermaphrodite, or futanari. However you wish to call a girl with pussy, boobs and cock.
April 13, 2015 8:05 a.m.
bijschjdbcd, sonder is my favorite word. Cool to see someone else knows what it is. And is it really Thailand? Well then. I had it right the first time. Also CanadianShinobi, have you tried hypnosis by any chance? Although the chances of finding someone who actually knows what the hell they're doing is kind of slim. Most so-called "hypnotists" are full of shit. The reason I bring it up is my dad is a hypnotist and I know he's helped people out with various mental disorders, my brother included.
April 13, 2015 9:02 a.m.
Femme_Fatale says... #39
Problem is ChiefBell, is that it is apparently considered completely unethical by surgeons.
April 13, 2015 9:16 a.m.
Hey, whatever floats your boat. I also scared the everliving shit out of my mom when she picked up my phone and read that you were talking about sex RP'ing. Not that I care, of course.
April 13, 2015 9:31 a.m.
Weird. I haven't noticed it as the norm. I frequent the internet and Femme regularly startles me. I'd certainly put it under the category of a little bit too adult for an MTG forum.
April 13, 2015 9:53 a.m.
CanadianShinobi Sounds pretty tough, man. Hope you feel better soon. :3
mpeach1 Lol, good point, but my mother is from the 70's and not very Internet-savvy, so she was in for a shock when she picked up my phone.
April 13, 2015 9:54 a.m.
No, I mean - shit.
This was what I was trying to link. That would have been super cool. (btw it's private, only Canada can see it)
April 13, 2015 9:55 a.m.
I'm personally annoyed by the massive increase in blatant sexuality at large. I'm from the 80's and I still feel like its something best left in your bedroom. By all means bang away, but its mostly children that want to talk about it constantly.
April 13, 2015 9:55 a.m.
FAMOUSWATERMELON says... #47
"By all means, bang away"
Hahahaha you are my hero Zoo.
April 13, 2015 10:03 a.m.
FAMOUSWATERMELON says... #49
You've been here for the 350 or so pages of both threads and NOW it's interesting??
April 13, 2015 10:11 a.m.
Femme_Fatale says... #50
You could say we are entering a sexual age. Prostitution becoming legal now that people realize that it doesn't cause sexual trafficking. The whole trans situation. Access to the knowledge of everything through the internet.
Want to know how to regulate this? Sexual education. Teaching your kids at a young age how to have sex safely, and what sex is. Because they are going to learn about it as early as grade 3, when they are 9. Because if you don't teach them, they'll judge for themselves and try and learn for themselves, and they will learn the wrong things.
bigguy99 says... #1
Sounds pretty good. Just checked on Amazon as a quick reference and they've got either six for 35 or one for 10, which doesn't make much sense but I'm not buying the packs anyway. Packs are for dweebs anyway. It's all about the singles - how else am I supposed to get an Elkin Lair?
April 12, 2015 11:13 p.m.